Feb 11, 2009 Happy Valentine's Day to me!!

I remember very vividly, one of my Dr.s last year told me, at the begining of my cancer journey, that the best thing I could do for my health and myself, was to find a good man and fall in love! Well, I finally did!! I got to visit her last week and tell her the good news and she was ecstatic!!!!

His name is Robert S. and he's Australian! I didn't know until the moment that I knew, that he was exactly what I wanted in a man. By that, I mean, that sometimes I think we don't know what we want until it's in front of our face and then it's like an Oprah Aha moment and we suddenly just know. I've had moments in life where I just knew what I knew and there's no rhyme or reason for that knowing, I just knew what I knew, and I was always right.

I knew that I wanted a good man, and that was worth holding out for. What I just realized recently is that I want to have a bi-cultural life. Living abroad has always been a long-time dream and I suddenly realized that's the life I want, and he's the life I want. He's sweet, kind, generous, smart and loves me too! He's handsome, sexy, and has a wonderful Aussie accent and is very passionate!!! We're talking marriage and a future together!! This year, I have a Valentine!! I'm only sorry here's about 15,000 miles away.....:(

Love is truly what makes the world go around!!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Jan 30, 2010

Today I got a very swift kick in the butt of a remineder that I just went through cancer and I need to be much more gentle on myself. I've tried to just right back into life and it's hurting and full of resistance and hard. Today, I get to remember that play is more important than work, and that I am not meant to live my life the way most people live their lives and that's OK. I get to remember that life isn't meant to be hard and more work than play. I forgot and what happened is that my body started hurting. My thoughts started to become rigid. My emotions started to bottle up and stay stuck. I came here knowing that I am not anyone but myself, and in that knowledge comes the freedom of living my life the way I need to live it and not the way anyone else needs to live theirs! Whew.....I feel like I just took a very big weight off my shoulders by just saying that. I get to me and it's my choice to embrace me or not and when I don't things start to get stuck and forceful and I don't like living that way!

So in today is a new day, I get to start remembering that my spirit and Divine Creator are the most important relationships that I can work on, everything and everyone else, gets to be second, and will work out just fine if I am prioritizing what's most important to me.

I JUST WENT THROUGH A YEAR OF CANCER AND IT'S OK FOR ME TO LIVE LIFE IN A MORE GENTLE AND LOVING WAY!! That was my own reminder! Thanks Cheryl for helping me out of that one.....:)